Falling Angel

What was it this time?

God, what did I do?

You say I’ve really fucked things up,

I’ve pushed all my stress on you.

Sometimes I think you hate me

And you want me to go away.

So if I put myself in the ground,

What will you have to say?

I don’t wanna be awake,

I don’t wanna be alive.

Sometimes, I wish

I could just lay down and die.

I don’t wanna feel this ache,

I can’t stand being alive.

I guess it really is my fault,

Because I’m the one who lies.

I cannot say I’m sorry,

For things I have not done.

The view from here is reminiscent

Of staring down the barrel of a gun.

I know I’ll be forgotten soon,

This I’m sure is true.

I put the blame on myself,

I blamed me, just like you.

Never learned from my mistakes,

And I’m never gonna try

To be the perfect person you want.

I don’t wanna live this life.

I’ve taken all the pills I can

And said goodbye to no one.

My wrists are bleeding out now,

But you won’t love me until I’m gone.